Playing into your insecurities…
What you’re about to witness is a perfect example of someone (as in me) playing into her own insecurities. I’m writing for you to know that giving your insecurities time and space in your mind will have you feeling like the rant below. DON’T DO IT. The negative aspects that only you can see within yourself will eat you alive, and this is an example of exactly. Everything you’re about to read in the next three paragraphs are complete bullshit and lies that my mind tells me. So if you find yourself in this mini rant remember that is not or me, instead its negative inner thoughts that we have about ourselves.
I’m Ranting Today.
Hello Cunts! This post will be a mini rant so buckle up…I am quite tired of my friends as of late, and it’s because of how inconsiderate they have been. Maybe you can relate? You ever have a friend that just doesn’t see how situations might be harder for you to deal with than for them to deal with? Or a friend that can’t see things from your perspective. My least favorite is the friend that doesn’t see how the situation they put you in, puts you in a bad position until it’s too late and then they say “oh but now I feel bad”. I HATE an “oh I feel bad” ass bitch. Because the reality is that you don’t really “feel bad”, you’re just saying that as collateral for the fucked up situation that you put me in. You don’t really “feel bad” because if you did you wouldn’t have put me in this uncomfortable situation in the first place! I don’t think I need to give you an example of what these uncomfortable situations might feel like, use your imagination.
Don’t Be That Friend.
But of course I can blame myself as much as I can blame my friends, because the truth is I allowed them to put me in the uncomfortable situation. I could have just have said “NO” to the uncomfortable situation that they were trying to put me in, but I didn’t want to be the “difficult friend”. You know what I’m talking about right? The difficult friend is the person in your friend group who always has a problem with something, no matter what the situation is. They don’t like the energy of literally EVERYONE at the party, they’re a bit uppity, it’s hard for them to just go with the flow, most of all they are worst person to turn to when something doesn’t go according to plan because they’re waiting to say “I told you so” with a smirk to match with it. You get the gist. This is the person I’m trying not to be. But to be honest as I’m typing out those examples of what a “difficult friend” is, I see parts myself in some of them (don’t you worry I’m working on it).
However, just because I’m trying my best not to be the “difficult friend”, doesn’t mean that my friends have the right to put me in situations that force me to be the “difficult friend”. Can we just agree that putting me in a situation that sets me up to be the “difficult friend”, is not smart for anyone? Trust me when I say that I don’t want to be the “difficult friend”, so please don’t force me to be one. Also, think twice about the different situations you put yours friends in, it’s about both of you, not just you.
See what I mean?
That rant that I just wrote was once again, not me but my negative inner thoughts I have about myself. Those examples I wrote about a “difficult friend” do not describe me or you at all. If you can relate to the rant or thought of a similar one, reevaluate your thoughts. Ask yourself “is this me or my insecurities”? It isn’t fair to yourself or the people around you for think this way. There’s no need for you to keep fighting with yourself over things that aren’t true. This post was an example of you need to stop doing.